I know i said i wanted a break. But apparently it isn't going to come.

I feel so trapped. Enclosed by so many different factors, it's forming a box around me, and steadily moving closer. I feel like my mind is about to be crushed soon. And yet, i can't display weakness, i really want to stay at home and just sleep and slack but i can't. Such are the trappings of responsibility.

China trip is in less than one month. And i don't feel ready. My leg still can't do jumps and i'm definitely not on prime form. I feel tired so easily, i can't stand prolonged stress on my legs. How am i going to train while in china? At the rate i'm going, i'll just be wasting my time there. But yet, theres nothing much i can do until my leg heals. And damnit, its god damn SLOW! I really hope i can recover by next week. If not i won't be able to regain my form in time for china. It sucks.

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Yesterday went for the first LSCT training in a long long time. It felt really good going back, joking and playing. And i could forget my troubles for one night. One night may not be much, but it really felt like i was alive again, free of inhibitory factors.

It's been so long since i did a family cheer. I really missed it. Everyone crowding together and shouting together.

Thanks alot guys, for giving me a short revival. =)