Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Today, just a little bit of my burden was relieved. It felt so good to hear you guys. Its just a little bit more, you guys can do it!
11:47 PM
Several times my spark burned low. Several times it was rekindled.
Who will make my embers, burning low, flare with renewed strength again?
12:11 AM
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Why do i seem to be doing more then you? Why can't you be a little more responsible? Why can't you take a little more initiative? Why are you constantly talking yourself out of jobs that YOU are supposed to do? Do you know those jobs end up on my table? You're 19, you seemed so promising, i was willing to follow you, but not anymore. Why do i find myself giving you work to do, persuading you to do them, when it should be the other way around? I am supposed to be the one being ordered around, i am supposed to have a lesser job, one with lesser responsibilities. And yet i give you only a few simple jobs. Those simple jobs can drag on for MONTHS. The members who rely on us keep asking me with issues regarding your jobs.
I have posted so many venting posts on you. Because i don't know where else to vent my frustrations anymore. I have talked, and talked even more, but you don't seem to change in attitude. I have talked to people but no one seems to be able to provide me with an adequate advice. I really don't know what to do anymore. I can only hope for the comm change to come faster, so that i may have a comm that is alot more responsible. At least i hope so. How i really wish so.
I began this academic year with such high hopes for the committee, i really believed we could accomplish alot more then what Yuling's committee did. But i find myself doubting. Organizing IVP, i give zero credit to you. The organizing of IVP, credit goes to my committee. The bunch of year1s and 2s that are so kindly helping me. How proud of them i am. In just a few more weeks our work will be completed. And what do i find from you guys? Nothing much. Really. A few simple jobs handed to you, and it still indirectly gives me trouble. In the end i still had to chap in and placate Siow. What nonsense is this man?
I really hope in my 3rd year in this CCA, a proper committee takes charge. Damnit I'm FUCKING PISSED!!!
5:40 PM
Sunday, October 25, 2009
I'm 18! =D thx for all who msged me happy bday =)
Being 18, doesn't make much diff though. i doubt i'll go clubbing etc. But i do notice a difference. Last time i would wish for lots of materialistic stuff. $$, gifts, blabla. But this year i have a different wish altogether. And i hope it really comes true. Cause i wanna see everyones smiling faces. I think that will be my best birthday present ever. =D
Oh, i treated myself to a slurpee as a present =X hahaha
12:12 AM
Monday, October 19, 2009
I think the closer and closer to IVP it gets the more stress i become. Stress over the organisation, stress over the stress to FINALLY get overall champ, stress over the teams training, stress over a million and one things.
And schools started. I feel it starts at the wrong time. Sick, tired, not at my best, just want to sleep. And i feel so detached and squeezed up by everything. And emart's renovated -_- no internet connection there. And the cozy emart has become a printing store and a dumb co-op. I DON'T LIKE! I think i'd rather have back the old emart. With a single aunty inside complaining about the boredom and a wide open space to go in and slowly choose snacks. AND you can go in sit in the aircon and play PSP if it gets too hot outside. But maybe i'm saying this just cause i've come to feel at home at that place. Emart rocks, why did they change it -_-
Tomorrow's going to be the first school training for months. And theres alot of things to settle with Siow. I'm not looking forward to it. I bet i won't have the time to hang out at emart, again. Gosh i miss hanging out with them sia. Like seriously.
I really want to cut my hair.
I want holidays! Round 2.
Oh and i'm stress over my studies. Hopefully i can concentrate on them more this sem once i'm done with duties and i can get my long deserved promised break from ahbeat! haha.
Oh and i'm stressed over what will happen to the team when i'm in year3. Then, i'll be the "senior". What will happen if me and my batch screws things up? Wah and it'll be damn weird to be the senior, feels old. Amongst other things.
11:27 PM
Saturday, October 03, 2009
ARGHHH 1 more month only! Can't believe time passes so fast. I really hope i planned things out properly. I really hope nothing screws up =/ Now i look at it, like everything suddenly become so packed an tight. Jialatjialat!! Hopefully everything will turn out alright. At the rate things are going, i think we will just nice make it on time only. Gosh, horrible. And there are things still unaccounted for. Holy mama! Scary sia.
But overall, i really enjoyed organising this compt. Pek cek, but nice to know we did it eh? Hopefully this feeling will be the same after that day and not one of screwing up.
11:59 PM