Today was...i don't know.

His comment really seared through an already tearing heart. The only consolation i felt was that my qiang was up to standard. If there wasn't that there as a living thread to support, i think i would have been taken down.

Even now, i feel down. To see everyone's disappointment, and to see their efforts trying to hide it, it hurts. Everyone's lost in their own thoughts. Everything suddenly seemed so cold. A normally lively atmosphere transformed. Theres so many changes, and there doesn't seem like theres a thing which i can do. Damn i feel like drowning myself in the bathroom.

I really feel like taking a break you know. To let my thoughts organize themselves. To have a little me time. To let my brain empty its contents into the air. But theres so many things to do. My break will still be long in coming it would seem. Disappointing ain't it?

I'm gonna improve. I can fulfill my responsibilites, cause i must.