Today decided to string together an intriging chain of events. Hmm, actually not really today on its own but rather the whole week i suppose. A week of reminiscing the past memories. And for the first time in one and a half years, i doubt my decision. heh...

Met a old friend's father a few days ago at Sino's coffeeshop. He told me about my friends achievements and experiences. At first when i saw him i was trying to end the conversation, but then, as we talked i got more and more pulled in, more intrigued. And at that time i didn't know why.

And then came the competition. I may curse and swear at this competition for the poor organization( i got a freaking gold for 2nd place la!! ), but yet this competition reminded me of a lot of things. During the prize giving, talked to the malaysians who did zixuan also. What they said about my qiang being fast and nice and only lacking in nandu, i thought was bullshit. I was thinking, look at weijian! etcetc. And when i looked at the malaysian's qiang, i thought he was better then me, his grace, jibengong. But later when tzeyuan watched the video with me, i realized i wasn't as slow as i thought. But why then do i feel so encumbered and sluggish? albeit i was slower then my sec 4 year, but the feeling of inferiority is still there even though i improved after my stopping of wushu. Heh, and i always say to Cat that she doesn't have enough confidence. Opps =p And another thing he said; We stopped wushu already actually. We only came back because of this competition. Which leads me to think, no matter what happens, ultimately you will feel the urge to continue to train again. LOL even zhen jl went back to coaching again.

After the competition, went to chill with the rest. Listened to Cat and Tzeyuan talking. When Cat went toilet, me and Tzeyuan talked about the old times, of wuzong and of our training. And somehow, i earned a label of "feng qiang" in wuzong. LOL? Its been one and a half years man! I think their memories are very good to have remembered me. Talked about the 3 musketeers of qiang, old jia qi ban, and a hell load of other stuff.

And i think the last conversation finally sent my mind into a whirlwind of thoughts. The accumulation of the week's recalling trips finally accumulated i guess.

Ultimately, the question that should be asked will be : Should the legacy be revived?

Reviving will mean alot of hardwork. It will mean going back to a life that poses a lot of pressure and doubts upon yourself. I thought i had left that kind of life behind when i came to poly, but i guess it finally caught up again.

Sometimes, life gives you a lot of choices that seem impossible to make...ah well.

And you always claim that i give very good direct to your face pep talks, but i think your puny indirect pep talk is worse! Reminisce for such a short period and so many questions pop out again.

HAIYO!!!