k not emo anymore. cuz i muz always tink positive. if not tis yr sure emo evryday 1. haha... anw. i hate fris...longest sku day. so tired. haha. but i tink jc oso lidat. so muz get used 2 it. anw. aft lunch had bio. found a new n v innovative way 2 slp in class. 1 no can ask me. den aft tat 1 hr break. did abit of pt in class den slacked. den had ss. den i overslpt on e bus agn. cuz was so darn tired. tink gona have 2 slp early 2nite. tmr 3 trainins leh. sure die if not enuff rest. anw i concluded tat 4 now zixuan is not e most impt 4 me. wait ntil im promo ntil ty tat dui 1st den i change back 2 zixuan. aft quan guo i change back 2 jingsai.n oso on sat muz ask e wz jl. does major compts hav qiang 4 guys? n if so muz i change 2 jian qiang or dao gun? if so den i may consider changin. most lykly i wun change if it means givin up my qiang toh. got sentimental value. its e 1 ting tat i can touch n not feel lyk teres anth in my hand at all. qte a cool feeling. but i alre say tis feeling so many times alre. n yet i stil dno how 2 xplain it all out. haha...wait 4 yall 2 discover 4 urself ba. so aft quan guo change 2 jingsai agn. den aft im lyk 18++? or mayb 17 la. change back 2 zixuan. time 2 hav fun. anw wil stil lian zixuan la. esp my qiang n quan. esp proud of tose 2. quan is i entirely bian myself 1. alot of ppl say i jigsaw frm vids cuz i bian so nice. but tats false. i bianed it last yr. it was in e hols whn i was super bored. so i dcided 2 try create a taolu of my own. at tat time i did not no bout zixuan or w/e shit yet. so i anyhow playplay. ok come out 1 taolu. admittedly it sucked. but i tot it was vvvv gd. cuz its my own work la obviously wil lyk it more. but e entire taolu e dongzuo all i come out by myself 1. no watchin vids ok. den aft tat e whole of last yr i contd play wif e dongzuos. makin it btr blabla. ntil it bcome damn long n tirin tat jl forced me 2 shorten it. tats whn i started watchin vids. den i found nth 2 help. so i juz deleted whole chunks outta my taolo. den 2 link it up agn i juz ran thru e vids n selected a few lian dongzuo n slot in. tats e taolu most of yall saw. den yall came back frm china n i saw a few nice dongzuos oso. so i 1 la naturally. so i edited 1 n put inside a part of my taolu tat i always considered bland but dno how make it btr. but tis i confirm can say. once my stamina improve n im stronger. i'll switch back 2 e taolu tat jl force me 2 change out of. cuz if im stronger den i can do it liao. haha...but my qiang i juz cooped outta my 'idols' qiang la. his qian ban tao. hou ban i ownself make. cuz hes qianban has evryth tat i wud lyk in my qiang. runnin n nandu tat r rather slack. n lotsalotsalotsa qiangfa tats cool. ok go yatui liao b