Sunday, November 08, 2009
IVP is finally over! =D
All the organizing, the frustration, the sleepless nights. It all led up to yesterday. Was so nervous that i would have missed out something and everything will screw up. But in the end everything unfolded so beautifully. Seeing all the schools walk in, the layout of the Hall, it felt like everything just jumped out from paper into real life. It felt good. But damn, am i tired. Can't really get a break yet. Theres post-IVP stuff to settle. But after that, i'm going to chillax!
I think, organizing this IVP made me learn a lot. How real life big events out there will be, seeing how the different presidents from the different schools work, learning from them, its really enriching to see why they were chosen as their club's representative. I think my PR skills improved a lot. Constantly having to talk nice and being unable to shout your frustrations when you really want to, its been tough, especially since i'm usually that kind of person. Felis catus still thinks my PR skills suck though -_-
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I think that yesterday, i have just proven to myself that despite getting a serious injury, the mind can still overcome it.
Constantly convincing myself that i can recover, telling everyone that i can recover, its indirectly "psychoing" my mind and body to make it recover. Never stopping the claims that the gold medal will be mine, I made myself want it so badly. I made myself so hyped up over getting the overall champ that it all bore fruit on that day.
The adrenaline rush and the mental barriers that convinced myself that i am fit and ready, it allowed me to endure one whole day of competition. I really felt no pain at all yesterday. Psychology really is amazing. It pushed my body beyond what it can normally do.
But now, everything has died down. My leg hurts like hell. It started last night after the competition but got worst this morning. I'm going to be long in recovering.
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NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC WUSHU GOT THE OVERALL CHAMPION FOR 2009!!!
I feel super proud. Like finally, after losing two years to SP. This year we really own sia. 6 GOLDS!!!! 2nd and 3rd only boasts 3 golds each. I really feel super proud of everyone. We cheered the loudest in the whole hall among all the schools.( A certain degree of credit goes to mceroe who lead almost all the cheers HAHA) Something that doesn't usually happen during normal training.
During the competition, i really saw everyone trying their best. And thats all i could have asked for from anyone. Everyone is a winner, cause everyone played their part to get that big shiny champions trophy now sitting in clubhouse. =D
Duilian was sort of fiasco =p Liuming was laughing when he asked me why we kept missing each other. But i think inside he felt we could have done better. Maybe its cause its the first time we competed in duilian? Its certainly a new experience. First time me and meh even trained duilian. At least we started out with a small competition. Maybe we can do it again at nationals next year. With more stunts inside!
Maybe i'll compete chuantong nanquan again next year. It's awfully fun! Hopefully this time with an authentic taolu =p
Jiti Quan was the best. Like really. During normal trainings you guys never did so well before. Your performance this time around was shockingly good. I still think you guys should have won, but then, life's like that huh?
And i'm really happy to see everyone's smile. This is the first time my birthday wish came true! HAHA maybe cause its the 18th birthday so got special powers? Maybe for the 21st it'll be the same, will be looking forward to it.
To succeed, we must first always believe in ourselves. =D
4:39 PM
Thursday, November 05, 2009
To succeed, we must first believe in ourselves.
And i believe i can recover.
I just want to compete that badly.
I refuse to let NP get second for the 3rd year running.
I give myself till tomorrow to recover.
I will hua taolu by tomorrow.
I will lian a proper zhengtao at 7am on Saturday.
I will recover, and win.
3:35 PM
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
Tonight is the unluckiest night in my life. Can't believe can be so unlucky. Compete so many years, something like this has never happened before. Really hope that my leg heals by tomorrow.
11:24 PM
Monday, November 02, 2009
Today was damn classic. 2 different lectures, 3hrs. I slept for 2hrs and 30 mins. When the lecturers changed i didnt even notice. In the end i only got attendance for the first lecture. SIAN.
When i woke up, i had i'm sexy written in pink marker on my legs and hands + a "lovebite" on my neck. GOSH! On the way home was damn funny la, everyone kept starring at me! I tried covering the i'm sexy on my legs but was wearing shorts -_-
Now bathe finish, cannot wash off!! OMG! But its ok, was entertaining to look at the people's expressions and imagine what are they thinking in their heads. LOL
10:04 PM
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Today, just a little bit of my burden was relieved. It felt so good to hear you guys. Its just a little bit more, you guys can do it!
11:47 PM
Several times my spark burned low. Several times it was rekindled.
Who will make my embers, burning low, flare with renewed strength again?
12:11 AM
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Why do i seem to be doing more then you? Why can't you be a little more responsible? Why can't you take a little more initiative? Why are you constantly talking yourself out of jobs that YOU are supposed to do? Do you know those jobs end up on my table? You're 19, you seemed so promising, i was willing to follow you, but not anymore. Why do i find myself giving you work to do, persuading you to do them, when it should be the other way around? I am supposed to be the one being ordered around, i am supposed to have a lesser job, one with lesser responsibilities. And yet i give you only a few simple jobs. Those simple jobs can drag on for MONTHS. The members who rely on us keep asking me with issues regarding your jobs.
I have posted so many venting posts on you. Because i don't know where else to vent my frustrations anymore. I have talked, and talked even more, but you don't seem to change in attitude. I have talked to people but no one seems to be able to provide me with an adequate advice. I really don't know what to do anymore. I can only hope for the comm change to come faster, so that i may have a comm that is alot more responsible. At least i hope so. How i really wish so.
I began this academic year with such high hopes for the committee, i really believed we could accomplish alot more then what Yuling's committee did. But i find myself doubting. Organizing IVP, i give zero credit to you. The organizing of IVP, credit goes to my committee. The bunch of year1s and 2s that are so kindly helping me. How proud of them i am. In just a few more weeks our work will be completed. And what do i find from you guys? Nothing much. Really. A few simple jobs handed to you, and it still indirectly gives me trouble. In the end i still had to chap in and placate Siow. What nonsense is this man?
I really hope in my 3rd year in this CCA, a proper committee takes charge. Damnit I'm FUCKING PISSED!!!
5:40 PM
Sunday, October 25, 2009
I'm 18! =D thx for all who msged me happy bday =)
Being 18, doesn't make much diff though. i doubt i'll go clubbing etc. But i do notice a difference. Last time i would wish for lots of materialistic stuff. $$, gifts, blabla. But this year i have a different wish altogether. And i hope it really comes true. Cause i wanna see everyones smiling faces. I think that will be my best birthday present ever. =D
Oh, i treated myself to a slurpee as a present =X hahaha
12:12 AM
Monday, October 19, 2009
I think the closer and closer to IVP it gets the more stress i become. Stress over the organisation, stress over the stress to FINALLY get overall champ, stress over the teams training, stress over a million and one things.
And schools started. I feel it starts at the wrong time. Sick, tired, not at my best, just want to sleep. And i feel so detached and squeezed up by everything. And emart's renovated -_- no internet connection there. And the cozy emart has become a printing store and a dumb co-op. I DON'T LIKE! I think i'd rather have back the old emart. With a single aunty inside complaining about the boredom and a wide open space to go in and slowly choose snacks. AND you can go in sit in the aircon and play PSP if it gets too hot outside. But maybe i'm saying this just cause i've come to feel at home at that place. Emart rocks, why did they change it -_-
Tomorrow's going to be the first school training for months. And theres alot of things to settle with Siow. I'm not looking forward to it. I bet i won't have the time to hang out at emart, again. Gosh i miss hanging out with them sia. Like seriously.
I really want to cut my hair.
I want holidays! Round 2.
Oh and i'm stress over my studies. Hopefully i can concentrate on them more this sem once i'm done with duties and i can get my long deserved promised break from ahbeat! haha.
Oh and i'm stressed over what will happen to the team when i'm in year3. Then, i'll be the "senior". What will happen if me and my batch screws things up? Wah and it'll be damn weird to be the senior, feels old. Amongst other things.
11:27 PM
Saturday, October 03, 2009
ARGHHH 1 more month only! Can't believe time passes so fast. I really hope i planned things out properly. I really hope nothing screws up =/ Now i look at it, like everything suddenly become so packed an tight. Jialatjialat!! Hopefully everything will turn out alright. At the rate things are going, i think we will just nice make it on time only. Gosh, horrible. And there are things still unaccounted for. Holy mama! Scary sia.
But overall, i really enjoyed organising this compt. Pek cek, but nice to know we did it eh? Hopefully this feeling will be the same after that day and not one of screwing up.
11:59 PM
